Should I be surprised that your love
Has brought me so much misery?
Our love was always a mix
Of affection and agony
The eve before I was to gain you
You lost your dear parents
I found myself married to a warrior
Her quest for justice completed
My heart full and primed to break
Life goes on
And I was forced to leave my bride
The halls of our home were empty
Even miles away I was filled with pride
That my wife would guard her modesty
In the midst of such anguish
If you were in half as much pain in your grief
As I was in my longing
Then the anguish should've been paralyzing
Yet you protected that most sacred quality
What did you think would happen
To my poor, lovesick heart
When I heard you had abandoned our home
To protect your decency?
Did you think I would return to you?
Did you think I would feel proud?
Did you think I would feel indifferent?
Or did you not think of me at all?
I felt nothing but agonizing desire
The distance between us suddenly insurmountable
Separate from such a virtuous soul
The very world seemed to ache with me
Your esteem nearly killing me
Unable to touch you, to kiss you
I was capable only of longing
Starved for your kiss
Letters and gossip fed my soul
O, sweet wife, you should have been by my side
And nowhere else
There has rarely been a woman
Forced to face such challenges as you
And there has rarely been a man
Lucky enough to hold her heart
And there has never been a man
More miserable to lose it
I could list all your virtues
But what good would it do?
Break my heart even more?
Name a marriage as long as ours
That was not cut short by separation or the scythe?
As impossible as task
As describing my departed love
Forty years you were mine
And still not enough
If our union was to end in death
My soul was the right one to take
I am filled with anger, my love, still!
How could your mind be capable
Of imagining a life without me?
No child could compare to you
My soul breaks to think
You ever believed otherwise
Never have I met such as fool
As you were in your selflessness
Fate’s cruelty knows no bounds
Given the most charitable wife
Generous enough to leave me
My blessing almost became my curse
I myself was a fool, too
Expressing my passion through gifts
A sapphire for your beauty,
A ruby for your kiss
The jewels shone like stars on you
Yet all the money in the world could not buy
The priceless gifts you gave me
Have you ever met a man without a soul?
Why am I surrounded by so many of them
Yet cannot find you?
Those fools tried to tear us apart
Cold men who have never known
The warmth of true love
Clinging to gold and weapons
Not knowing they possess nothing
Perhaps they saw the light of our love
Burning in the distance
And were beckoned like moths
They seized my name
Straight from your heart
Carved it on their tablets
And condemned it to death
Had I known that surviving their attempts
Would one day rob me of my heart
I would have written it myself
In those men we faced evil
For who would harm a ray of sunlight?
They broke your precious body
When you stood in my defense
Once again your altruism was a knife in my heart
A far worse sight
To see the bruises on your body
Than to see my name
On Death’s list
In need of safety I dragged myself away from you
It had delighted me so
In a simpler past
To see you with those jewels on your body
Gone, now, forever
Sacrificed for my flight
How I wish I could hold them
And pretend you were in the next room
You saved my wretched life
But where did it go?
I lost it when I lost you
You saved me just to kill me
Those men are long gone now
And yet I long for their knock on our door
For my name on their list
Now I know that death is nothing
Compared to life without you
My name should never be written
Unless in your script
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